Hey girl,
You’re sinking. I can see it.
Deep within yourself. Your spirit quietened. Your grief surmounting.
But you need to hear this: It is going to be okay.
Not in the cliché way, but the absolute truth kind of way.
The noise of uncertainty will be silenced as clarity appears. That sick feeling, it will go too. That deep loss, the ocean where you think you’ve lost everything, will soon find peace along with all the beautiful things that you didn’t know you had acquired in the tears.
You spoke up for what was needed for you to not break completely. It may have upset a few people, as is the way when you listen to what you really need. And yes some people were disappointed. But the ones that matter entirely, will be there to cherish you because you said yes to the renewing, and not to everyone and everything else.
Seasons like this need to happen. Grief needs to be set free. You can’t rush to the next thing, to the next thing, to the next thing before allowing yourself to learn in time, you simply can’t run away from within.
For ever.
The thing is now you can sit here a little longer. Lean in a little more. Listen to your heart, hear what your body has been trying to say all these years.
Yes, it’s uncomfortable. Yes, it’s heavy. But this space, it’s needed. So you don’t push these things down any further, you got real good at that.
You pushed and pushed until the body you house was stuffed, you pretended until the truth leaked a little, then a lot. So now you empty out, those years of swallowing. Your appetite for the new rush of feeling good about every little thing you do has now dissipated.
Now you are feeling the hollowness. But the shell feeling, this desolate wasteland isn’t wasted. It’s here you find your true self.
Now you have a choice – to run away in the rushing ahead or perhaps open your eyes to the beauty here… It’s here, but it requires you engage fully. Once you are aware, you can and you will ride this pain out. And soon enough you arise from the ashes, a new hope formed.
Perhaps you let go of the dream from younger years, because in fact it has been fulfilled and now the abyss of the uncertain lays before you. The great dusty unknown.
Except you are different this time.
The clarity is forming in your intention. This season has taught you. Weathered your spirit. Strengthened your resolve. You can now see with brighter eyes indeed you are strong, you can do hard things; You can be real, and authentic, finally you can breathe. You can find the real you.
So babe, what excites you here? What is being sparked in you?
Stay curious sweet one, play in the depths – for once the muck settles, clarity will soon appear. You will see you are already swimming free in the depths of your destiny, abandoned to the waves, carefree now, with unweighted energy.
It’s here, you can move on.
It’s here, you will find the freedom to face the future.
It’s here, you find who you were created to be.
It’s here, you embrace the girl within, living her dream.
xox